Sweet Words and Promises

Remember when we are in love and we make sweet promises to our lovers? We told them that we will always be there for them no matter what, for better or worse and even when they are way too cranky. Well, the easiest part is to make the promise but the hardest will have to be to deliver them when you don't feel like most. Some one once said making promises are like making babies, easy to make but hard to deliver (give birth to). That is when you yourself are going through a rough period. So some times we have to forget our pain and focus on others that we care for.

Lynn is on her first flight and she does not get enough sleep or eat regularly. I do not take pride of my predictions that all these will happen and her career will take a toll on her and also our relationship. She was driven by passion and blinded by excitement. Nothing could have stopped her at that time. And so I must go through this although I really hope my last worry does not come true. That all these will eventually tear us apart or worse still she suffers irrepairable damage to her health. Sometimes I think I know everything and can see what is coming. But what I see is coming is really not good now. Seems like base on the current time zone shifts what she goes through it will only worsens her health. All I can do now is to hope that she can adapt as fast as she can emotionally and also physically. Her character needs someone to be there for her all the time. I offered to be that guy not knowing that she will raise the chalenge. Not knowing that we will further apart and separated by more miles, oceans and even time zones. Right now I cannot help but worry about her..

I really need to have the strength to keep up with her emotional needs. I need to keep my promises. But there is always the straw that breaks the camel's back. When there is just too much to handle and just a little more you lose it. Well, life is tough. And we are sworn heroes. We must carry the weight of our loved ones on our shoulder.. Haha.. Too much cartoons again..