Something like a Dream

Being with her feels like a dream. It was when I feel complete and not think of anyone I want anymore. I just want to be with her now. But there are so many things that we need to go through together still.

I have to be in Thailand or she has to come here to make this work. We also have to work out her deep and complicated relationship with her first ex. And her father to accept me. Sometimes I do want to give up in all this. My friend did say that sometimes it is NOT that a couple cannot work things out but rather the people and the situation around them that tear them apart. I think the people around us do play an important role in our long distance relationship. Thank God that there are still people that are supportive of us to be together. I think her mom really helped.

I am afraid too. I am afraid that we could not last and what all these "nay" sayers have their wish come true. That will rob us of our dreams and believe of a Happy beginning, I mean a good married life. Why it is so hard for 2 people who loves each other to be together? Things really aren't as simple as we thought it could be. Anyway I am glad that I know her, love her and is love by her.

Someday I want to hold her hand and say this; Lynn,
I stand here today awaited long for these years of my life. To start a new beginning. To change my life and leave the very world I know behind. To make you my world and share whatever that is in it. The good, the bad the bitter sweet chapters of our lives.

From today onwards, you will not be lonely.. You will always have my unwavering support and love. You will not feel empty because my love, you can always drink from the wells of my heart for the warmth that you need and seek all your life.

As long as there is still breath of sanity in me, I will do all in my power to keep the promises I gave to you and honour them as I honour you who is my life, my best friend and most of all my wife..