Sweet Words and Promises

Remember when we are in love and we make sweet promises to our lovers? We told them that we will always be there for them no matter what, for better or worse and even when they are way too cranky. Well, the easiest part is to make the promise but the hardest will have to be to deliver them when you don't feel like most. Some one once said making promises are like making babies, easy to make but hard to deliver (give birth to). That is when you yourself are going through a rough period. So some times we have to forget our pain and focus on others that we care for.

Lynn is on her first flight and she does not get enough sleep or eat regularly. I do not take pride of my predictions that all these will happen and her career will take a toll on her and also our relationship. She was driven by passion and blinded by excitement. Nothing could have stopped her at that time. And so I must go through this although I really hope my last worry does not come true. That all these will eventually tear us apart or worse still she suffers irrepairable damage to her health. Sometimes I think I know everything and can see what is coming. But what I see is coming is really not good now. Seems like base on the current time zone shifts what she goes through it will only worsens her health. All I can do now is to hope that she can adapt as fast as she can emotionally and also physically. Her character needs someone to be there for her all the time. I offered to be that guy not knowing that she will raise the chalenge. Not knowing that we will further apart and separated by more miles, oceans and even time zones. Right now I cannot help but worry about her..

I really need to have the strength to keep up with her emotional needs. I need to keep my promises. But there is always the straw that breaks the camel's back. When there is just too much to handle and just a little more you lose it. Well, life is tough. And we are sworn heroes. We must carry the weight of our loved ones on our shoulder.. Haha.. Too much cartoons again..

Tokyo Trainning and missing you

As you have already read my lovely boyfriend story. I went to Japan for 2 weeks for my Cabin Attendant trainning. The tough trainning nearly to pass. My dream will come true soon. During this trainning my boyfriend, Larry always beside me and gives the big encourage to me. Without him I don't know I can pass this trainning or not.

I know I hurt him a lot for choosing this way but he still support me.Seem like I'm a devil for him. Two weeks in Tokyo was a good experience for me. Home sick, Sad , Nobody care , Loneliness. But at the end of the story is I came back home with succeesful.

When I was there. Every minutes I so scared to missing him. I know he should be sad and lonely. Normally we have already far when I went to Tokyo it made us further. I miss him a lot when I went to travel my mind always think about his suvernior . (may be I think to much so I don't know what I should buy for him haha)

Baby, I know becasue of me you have to pass the tough thing but please know I always appreciate the thing you did for me and that why I love you so much because you always care and give the thing I want to me. Love you na Tee ruk