How to lose the guy in 10 days

Episode 2

He is naughty

At the first time I met him. I noticed that he is a flirtatious man. And I think, I'm not wrong. Especially after Da who is my best friend told me she brought Larry to the club with her and her friends. He tried many times for touching her friend waist. Actually, I had known that story before. So I was not surprise when I heard that. And the first person who told me was Larry.

Frankly, I relized from this situation that although his character look like a naughty man but he is not. Becasue his voice when he told me about he touched Da's friend waist was very guity and he very worried about I would be angry.

Back to the point "How to lose the guy in 10 days". Seem like my first plan didn't suceed. I thought, if I tried to deny him, he would understand I didn't like him. But may be because of his foolish and his persistence made him still have a lot of motivations for flirt with me. So I came out the second plan. I asked Kit, my man friend assumed to like me and he would accompanied with me when I had to meet Larry.

We went to the club for new year party. Of course, I asked Larry to join because I just wanted someone who went to the Jam Bar (the culb) for booking the table. Many friends joined with us that night and Kit too. At that time, he gave me a promise that he would stop for smoking and he didn't smoke at all. But he came back to smoke that night may be because I was more care him when he smoked. I would complain him when he smoked and grabed the cigarette from his hand. But I noticed he liked me to do like that. The party was very nice.

You know? Although I always said I hate him but I was interested in him too. I always notice what he did in club. He liked to take my pictures. But actually, It was seem like he liked to take gilrs pictures because he took a lot of girl pictures in club that night.

So the counclusion is he is a play boy :p

Got My Baby Worried..

Sometimes we feel down and don't feel like we want to pick ourselves up. Just wanna lay there and for a while enjoy being miserable. But the problem of being miserable is you hurt someone you care about or offend ppl that you should never offend such as your boss or friends.. So being a believer of super heroes and TV characters, I have to pick myself up and tell myself; "Real heroes like Superman or spiderman can still save the world even if they had a real bad day." "I need to be strong and not be phased by all the bullshit I am getting..", I told myself. So there I go on a new day and waking up knowing that I cannot solve my problem by just complaining. Need to understand, measure and act and resolve my existing problem. What is a probelm is not really a problem. Need to tell myself that.

Anyway to the point, I know that I make her worried because I sounded like I had something troubling me and I dunno how to tell her. I feel like it's not a big problem but I just want to have someone to understand that I am being pushed to perform in every aspect. My work, my financial standings and I was told that, I should not go out to often with my best mate for nice dinners, movies and entertainment. I wanted to have fun like everybody else. But look where I am stuck, in the office everyday till 8 to 9 something pm. Sometimes, its voluntary.. Sometimes it's not. The times that was voluntary is fine. But everyday like this whether I liked or not was a problem for me at least. I know that she thinks that it's a good thing that my life is full of this "benificial activities" yah I can contribute. But I also want some relax time. Wish that not everyday I have to rush so many reports..

Well, so much for bitching around here. Cannot help it.. I have not many places to bitch about. Have to act cool and act like a hero in front of friends and colleagues because I need to be dependable and be hero. See, the problem of watching too much tv in my formative years.. I get detached from the real world and live in my own..

I am Kal-el son of Jor-el.. I come from Krypton.. And you who have read this owe me US 1,000.. Pay me back..

How to lose the guy in 10 days

Episode 1
He returned to Bangkok

After he had been in Pang Nga for a while, he came back to Bangkok for Christmas and New year. I know, I was very mean to him. Although I very annoyed him but I had never told him. My English was not good (Now still bad....haha) so I thought, at least I can practice my English with him. It was not his fault, if he would think I also interested in him.

He decided to come back Bangkok for Christmas and New year. I know, he came back for me but I neglected him in Bangkok nearly 10 days. He lived with a Japanese trainee. When he called me, many times I didn't pick up and I had never called back or send message to him.

I always discussed with my friend about him. So I thought, if I do very bad things to him in that 10 days, he will give up.

Because of my zodiac is LEO. Hence, I'm very confident. I love things which are luxurious. Most of the time when I will meet someone, I always dress up and I have never looked shabby. Especially when I have date with guy, I always want to be perfect in front of him. But in the same time if that person is my close friend or my family or someone I don't care, I will very lazy to dress up and look very shabby. Thus, when Larry arrived in that early morning, I asked him come to my home by himself (He had never been to my home before and actually, my home is very far from bus station. But I don't care) When he arrived, I went out to pick him up around my home. I know, my face and my hair that time looked very sloppy. He had never seen me like that before. I don't know how was his feeling at that time.......

We had the AIESEC meeting that day. I brought him to join even if I knew, he would be bored because he was not AIESECER. After the meeting we went to department store allowed there. We walked around department store and sat at one milk shop. That time should be the first time when we talked like face to face. At that time, I felt, he was very arrogant. He always said I am older than you so I know better. Frankly, these sentence made me very hate him! How come this man is too confident? Did he think he is the best one this world?

We went to We' Za club that night when was Christmas Night. Many people joined with us. I asked "Kit" who is my man friend to join for protecting me from Larry. He tried to show off a lot such as dancing, smoking ,drinking and always took me to the toilet. But frankly, I didn't appreciate that. Those things made me feel like he really was confident and very proud of himself. I didn't pay attention to him at all.

"Hey! Look at Larry..He took off his button's shirt." One of my friend told me but I didn't even want to see what he did. And then I noticed he walked away and he didn't come back to desk at all. He vanished away. Until the club closed he had still disappeared. He was not in toilet. We went to wait him in front of the club. Finally, he walked from somewhere and came to me. He put his hand on my shoulder and he looked at my eyes. He said something to me. Although I can not remember but It was sweet.

He told me he was stole his mobile phone. I sent him to taxi. I was sad and guity becasue I didn't take care him well. My friends started to think he was wiered and tried to call attention from me. We acussed him a lot. And our conclusion was he didn't lose his mobile phone. And I also believed.

Making Efforts..

At that time when I was Phang Nga back nearly 1 year ago. I was quite full of myself. Getting to travel alone for the first time to the famous, "land of Thai babes" haha.. Yah whatever I know of Thailand was what I had seen in movies and televisions and of course the occasional stories about "the wild time" my uncle had when he went to Thailand when he was much younger. So the painted impression of Thailand I had in mind was, cheap booze and beautiful women..(thanks to tv and movies). Nvm the fact that I cannot speak Thai at all. Body language enough already..

So there I was, one man, one intention.. trying to get the most of what I had while I was in Thailand. So I was thinking I can handle myself. I was reckless and rather awkward in socialising thus I had a " I hate Larry" fan club that popped up just after a few days I was in Thailand organised by the local Bangkok inhabitants. Great charisma huh.. Mainly because I was giving my point of view to the ppl who aren't that close to me. They perceived what I said and what I did as "show off or trying to act smart or whatever reasons there is to hate me." Poor old me, I made so many enemies and I didn't know at that time.

Example I told one trainee, Christina who had been there earlier than me, "that a guy would really appreciate it if you offer to follow him to take his car and not let him go alone instead of hanging out with us while he goes to retrive his Lamborgini (Lamborgini man.. stupid girl).. I know cause I am a guy".. And from there that trainee starts saying, "who does he thinks he is? He acts as though as he knows guys better me, a girl who have date more guys than he eats rice.." Ok.. the part about she dated that many guys was exagerated.. But nevertheless, she thinks that she knows better and thus begin another gossip on top of the way I dance and drink.. Yah and Lynn was close to that click too. So after hearing that she says like, "you know, you should not act like you know everything... Some ppl won't appreciate what you said." and all that. Today, I don't think it was a problem of what I said but rather a problem of, "once condemned, you should forever deemed condemned in the eyes of girls".. Maybe I am wrong but ppl are ppl. I cannot stop what they think of me. Everybody has their own way of seeing things. That was why I said in the beggining, " I am a deeply misunderstood man.."

Besides my dancing, my unwarranted opnions and my showing off how much I can drink (Free booze, why don't take?) there were more times how I was convicted of many other heinous crimes of unparalled appall.. I called Lynn like twice a day unrelentlessly. Mainly because it was cheap to call and that I want to get to know her better. Simply something innocent butmany ppl perceived that I wanted to F*#k her. If I was, I think I had enough money to screw any pros there and I think of who is better quality then Lynn.. See what I said about sharing opinions.. But honestly I wasn't looking for those things then. Not from her. I think at that time I was being one my most holy moment. And my upbringing really taught me to respect girls.(Thanks mom and aunties) I still do. Because my mom and aunts were probably a group with those "Girl Power Group" of yesteryears.

Anyway, Lynn hated me then and my life sucks at that time. No point dwelling on that anymore but to move forward and enjoy my time now of having finally change her opinion of me. I guess that was what matters. She sees pass through the socially awkward Malaysian who cannot get along well with many others. I might not have done much in my life. But I know being a teacher in Phang Nga and befriending my Thai studends were one of my biggest reward I had in my life. I know my impact there in 3 months wasn't great. But I cherish that I had done some small part.

Ok will continue next time. I think I sound really whiny and disorientated. Must be being too long in my office on a Saturday afternoon..

Fortuneteller

Who is my soul mate?

I was last year student at the time. Therefore, I had to be trainee in a company which relate to my study. I selected Spark Communication Company for my internship. This company is public relation company.

Most of employee here were women. They were interested in fortuneteller. So they asked a fortuneteller came to the office. I had never tried that before. Although I also was interested but I was not sure about this fortuneteller. But after my friends had tried, they said he predicted very well. For this reason, rest of people asked me to join because they would make appointment with fortuneteller again. Even if the price was 400 bath but I accepted to pay. (Always use money in the crap stuff.

I saw my fortune at the middle of December, 2005. I thought, this fortuneteller predicted my past very correct. He said, my mom was pass away and she always around for protection me. He said my mom will be happy soon because I will graduate soon. Actually, he said many things but I can remember well just only 2 topics which very influenced my ideas.

First, my love. As I told you before, I just broke up with my ex-boyfriend and we still kept in touch. The fortuneteller said I have 2 soul mates and I have already met them. First man I very love him. He is younger than me. (Oh! That's true. He is younger than me 3 year) I had thought to marry with him ( Um yeah I had). But He always brought the problems to me ( Yeah! ). I and him just broke up because he had other girl. But he will come back to me again on March 2006 ( and on March he really came back.) If I choose him, I will not happy and I will have the problems with my family. For other man, He is foreigner. He just came in to my life. If I choose him, he can make I am happy.

Oh! Foreigner? At the time, had only one foreigner who interested in me "LARRY". NO!!!!!! can not be him. I have never and ever like him.

At the time, I liked one of my friend he was studied in international school and he went to England for Master. I knew him for awhile and he is a very cute guy. Should be him so I asked fortuneteller "what is his work?" and the answer was " about logistic. ( Ah should be him, he works in that kind of company and he studied aboard so he is international as well) I know, I know. It was stupid idea but it was good for my feeling to tell myself like that.

Second prediction was about my job. You have a chance to study. You should study in Marketing. And you should be Flight Attendant. Flight Attendant is a job in my dream but I forgot about that until he remind my memory. I want to be flight attendant. I want to be the angle in the sky. !! ^-^

So after I saw fortuneteller, the prediction had a lot of affections to me. Especially, 2 issues above. I more attention with my friend and try to keep Larry away (Although in deep of my mind, I thought the one is fortuneteller mean is him but I didn't accept). The flight attendant have became the big of my dream since that. I really hope, one day I will wear a nice uniform, work in a big airplane , take care a passengers, make them happy and safety with our flight.

I don't know about all of the prediction will come true or not. I always believe that fortuneteller is a challenging and interesting science. I enjoy myself when I saw that and want to see it true or not. Although I didn't expect too much about the prediction but I had one prediction which have already came true. I got him "Larry". I can not risk my destiny. Although I tried a lot to avoid and deny you but I could not escape from you.

The Lost Girl..

She is getting nervous and scared. She feels alone and that there is no one that she can count on. Her health is getting worse but she is afraid to see the doctor with her mom. I feel like there is little I can do. I can only stay quiet and repeat myself that she goes to see the doctor. She has her reasons. And that she told me so. But I think that the doctor will only tell what is aching her and that she should not think more than that.

Can you imagine? Seeing your loved ones suffers. And there is little you can do except hear her lament about her pain. I am sure many of you could and that I think some of you went through worse. But the point is, nobody likes to be in this situation. And nobody wants to lose their loved ones let alone see them suffer. I hope that she can come to her senses and be brave enough to face the truth.

Dear, please go to check up. I don't want to have you faint again. I don't want to have you faint especially I am not there to be beside you. I don't want this unknown early warnings of your body be ignored and leads to more complication later.. That is what I mean, "please take care" when every time before we end our conversation.

Like I had said, "There is only one Lynn for me. She is not replaceable. She is precious.."

Calling from Pang Nga

Why he know my mobile phone number?

I really forgot about I gave my mobile phone number to him or he asked my number from somewhere. Whatever, he called me after he arrived to Pang Nga. At that first, I willing to talking with him. As I told you before, I was member committee in AIESEC. I worked in Service and Learning function. Therefore, one of my priority was facilitate trainee . So I thought, it was my obligation.But he kept calling me nearly everyday. Thus, I started to curious about his calling purpose. Christina, my Taiwanese friend was stay at my home. So she noticed about that too.

I just broke up with Pol, my ex-boyfriend for a while but I still loved him a lot. Sometime we still hanged out together. For this reason, It was very hard for me to forget him. Pol is the genius boy. He is younger than me 3 years. I was his girl friend around 5 months. Although it was very short time but I love him so much. Even if he lied me and had other girl but I tried to return our relationship. But all of things I did for him, he had never appreciated at all. He always looked down and complained me until I didn't saw my value and lose my confidence.

Larry, he know about my problem with Pol. He is a good listener. He pushed a lot efforts to knowing me. Even if my English was poor but he tried to communicated with me. He was unlucky for affection me at that time because my heart still had someone inside so it didn't open to him and made me annoyed him when he called. I started to complained him with my friend, although he didn't do anything wrong. But I had never told him about I didn't like his calling or his behavior. So it was not his fault if he thought I liked him.

Ahem.. Allow me..

Reading her blogs, I will speak of her as a third person to create a more dramatic effect..

Let me say first that whatever you have read about me in this blog is solely a rather sad and misunderstood perception of a man that was foreign and unfamiliar to Thai culture or perhaps even what other ppl thought about me then. Perhaps that I liked to drink and dance and enjoy myself was misconstrued as show off or even trying to attract attention. But bear in mind like any other foreigners I act like one and I didn't give a F*#k of ppl thought of me at that time. I was there to really enjoy myself and that I have just took a long leave from my work and I was there doing what any free spirited, adventure loving person would do.. travelling to foreign land and drinking cheap liquors.. Woo Hoo..

Well I met this girl, you know who.. When I was dancing with her, she said I was a "naughty man" and NOT "don't be naughty".. (I am so going to get into trouble.) Frankly I thought that I had a chance with her because well, I thought she liked me. Look at how guys could misunderstand girls. Man, now that I know what was in her mind, I am dead wrong.

Anyway, well for the next 3 months I tried to get to know her better.. Ok ok.. I went after her. She treated me like shit most of the time and boy.. was I smashed or what. I mean she really rubbed it in. She was with another guy at that time, ignored me and did many other embarassing stuffs to me. I had to remind myself to lift myself up and that I was in a land filled with other beauties.. I mean it was Thailand, the land of smiles and go go bars, and female escorts.. I told myself I should have been having fun and not give a crap about this girl. I cannot explain what made me went against my logical mind but the truth is I did give up. I thought I would have at least focus on other girls. And so I did what I wanted to do again. I flirted with her best friends girlfriends.. I was dancing with that girl and my hands were on her waist, Woo hoo lucky me.. Hehe (See, I am so in deep trouble).. My defence was, I was treated like shit by her. Well, back to the story. Her other friends kept slapping my hands and say "no, no, no.." They forbid me from holding her waist. I thought, ok.. maybe I went too far. Then the next thing.. guess what? She was dancing the same way with another Thai guy.. "Shit" I thought, "this was unfair" I guessed that they had something against me then.

Anyway I am lazy to continue now. Maybe next time I will continue to write my perspective of what REALLY happened. To just sum it up, I was really a misunderstood stranger that had good intentions but was hated by her and her friends. Man.. I have got to work on my social skills.

What happend after the club?

I went to his room next morning

December 3, 2005. I didn't go back home because it was too late when Route 66 club closed, so I went to stay with Pui. Pui's parent have dormitory near her home. For this reason, Pui always shares her rented room for AIESEC trainees. Maggie and Larry stayed in her dormitory. Christina stayed at Pui house. Usually, when I go to Pui place, I always stay with her. But I went to stay with Maggie in her rented room that night. ( I forgot the reason for staying with her, as too drunk)

Next morning I was woke up because my mom calling. She asked me to come back home as fast as I can. So I had to wake up after I rang off her line. Unfortunatly, I didn't have enough money for taxi. I tried to borrow Maggie's money but she also didn't have, therefore Maggie asked me to go to Larry room for borrowing. I thought that

"I don't want to go to his room. I don't want to borrow his money. I don't want to lose my face. But I don't have any choice."

Finally, I had to go to his room. I knocked the door. I waited not too long and that door was opened. I saw him sat on bed and he wore only short pants (Frankly, It looked like boxer.) Actually, I was very ashamed but I had to assume that I was ok. I borrowed money from him and he gave it to me suddenly. Although I told him I would return to him soon but until now I haven't returned to him yet.

Afterward, I hadn't met him for a while because he went to Phang Nga for being trainee. My feeling which I had to him at that time was just only a naughty trainee and he was not interesting for me at all....

Our destiny

December 3, 2005

The first day for our journey

Although we know each other since December last year

but

every pictures in my mind are very clear.

Actually, I can not remember when is the first day for our meeting. I can remember just only situation which happened on that day. But Larry always remember this day ( so sweet).

Our destiny start from I was Member Committee of AIESEC ( International Organization)and Larry decided for being trainee of Tsunami project in Thailand. For that reason is the beginning for our relationship.

On December 3, 2005 I made appointment with my best friends, Pui ,Christina and Maggie at SIAM center. On that day we planned to go to Route 66 Club. Before meeting time I walked around SIAM Center. A gay came to me and motivated me to go to casting with him that night. ummm this is the first time for me .....Actually, I really want to go but I denied him because I want to go to the club more. When I met Pui, Christina and Maggie, I told the story which I just met a modeling gay to them. That time I was excited so I didn't notice about still have other person there. After that Pui introduced a man who stood behind her to me. So I knew his name at that time. His name is Larry but at that time I thought his name is Rally so I keep called him like that. (Actually, I heard from Pui that will have a new Malaysian trainee joined with us.) I just said "Hi" to him and continued my story with my friends. (Frankly, at the first time I met him, I felt he was handsome but just only that first sight haha...sorry dear)

Ps......I have just known how to spell his name when we have already been couple and I know that because I chatted with his girlfriend's friend, Suansim and she asked me why I spelled Larry name like that. .... haha

And then we walked around SIAM Center and Christina stopped at a shoes shop. While I was waiting Christina chosen her shoes, Larry came to me and asked my name again. "Um...You didn't care my name at all what you was thinking when Pui introduced me to you" I thought like that when he asked my name.

Afterwards we went to the club but we arrived there a bit late so we didn't get the table inside the club for that reason we had to sit outside.

"This guy was very show off. Did he think, the way he danced was sexy?"

I thought ......and made me don't like him because his dancing style. And then we went inside the club and danced. I said to him that "Don't be naughty" I can remember just only that sentence. Don't ask me why I said like that because until now I haven't found answer yet.

Oh! Yeah! He tried to show that he can drink a lot alcohols, thus he helped me to drink and at the end of the story was he drunk and vomited. haha

This is my first impression which I had to him at that time.....

I hope he will read blog and tell me

what was his impression to me at that time too